I thought that poetry was the food of love.

DREAMS DO COME TRUE.

2010-08-19T20:24:00.000-07:00

you know i love All Time Low just like i love my life. i still can't believe this that they're playing here in Jakarta and i'm gonna watch them AGAIN in one year. i mean like for a person like me it's just amazing i can see them twice in a year. so the concert was on 4 August 2010.

i was so stoked so happy and speechless

when they are arrived here, i just can't believe that they went here. ok so i stayed at tendor (the place of the concert) since 12 pm but then the concert starts on 8.30 something

cause theres this opening band first which is sort of...

. when the concert started i started to scream and i sang

all the songs from

the first till the last, it wasn't as long and as fun with the one in melbourne, there's like something missing but i don't know what and i'm qu

ite not satisfied with it. but the crowd was fucking

crazy they really sing the songs out loud! and then what's crazier and almost make me wanna faint is that i drew ATL' s faces and then i was on the

front row and heck yeah in front of jack barakat <3>

then i was holding it and ALEX FREAKING NOTICED IT! he was smilin

g and giggling while singing when he saw

my drawing and then JACK ALSO FUCKING NOTICE

D IT! he was like saying hi and wav

ing at me, and his smile oh gooooooooooodddd, is this a dream? cause it's too good to be true :D and then jack noticed me right when i was about to give him the drawing but then i he went away but like a dilemma of something, i also don't really get it -.- but it was really amazing th

ough.

I always wake up in the morning just for

ATL and just to meet them, cause ya know i'm not a morning person :p so this is a big deal, on the

first day they came here it was on midnight so i

feel pity for them if i just go to them after their 20 hours of flight (sort of) so on the last day which is 5 August 2010 <>

GENDARY DAY in MY LIFE! i met all time lo

w PERSONALLY for the first time, AND that is the first time i succeed in chasing bands. so at the airport the fans were like fucking crazy when they arrived and i just saw the crews and i was like gasping and hyperventilating -.- and then there was this guy who helped us to get in and then the first one who checked in was Jack, i was lik

e oh go

d i can't believe the person who i adore

like crazy all of the time is in front of me. so i just go straight to take a picture with him and h

ugged him. and then i said that i went all the way from here to melbourne just to see you guys and he said it was awesome and he loves melbourne, it was kinda awkward or it's just me being starstruck -.- then i always wanted him to say happy birth

day to me right cause it was my sweet 17 and he is the

last person to made my 17 yr

s of life, so it was like this

Me:say happy birthday to me

Jack: I can't sing hehe *adorable smile*

me:just say happy birthday

Jack: happy birthday :) (hi5 then he holds

my hand)

oh and i also asked him about my drawing he said "uhh yeah i remember, but which one?" haha he forgot i think -.-

THAT IS UN-FUCKING-REAL!!!!!!!!! i'm too happy to believe this :')

and then he signed my ATL STD! all of em

signed it tho -.-

and then i go to Rian took a picture with him and he signed my ATL STD, he's so nice :D

And then when i wann go to Alex the security came and told us just to go out and we were like ok but then we ran back to take a picture with Alex and Zack, no way we're giving up on a big chance like this, screw that security guy.

oh and i talked to Alex i was like "alex do you remember my drawing?" he said "yeah! it's awesome i like it" and then hi5! i was so freaking happy and he was very cute also haha. and then i also said that i went to melb just to see you guys and he was like oh yeah? that's awesome! and then he signed my ATL STD.

last but not least ZACK! man his body is so WOW like 10 packs :O and very handsome indeed. when i hugged him i can only feel his muscles -_-

and that's it, thats such a beautiful moment i came home satisfied and very happy, i've never been this happy before. it's just like the feeling when Jack went to the Home Alone house, he was so fucking happy and it felt unreal right. i used to dream about this and hoping for it. but that dream i used to dream just became a reality :') thank you so much god.

ALL TIME LOW 24.feb.2010

2010-03-15T20:52:00.000-07:00

DREAMS DO COME TRUE!

i usually sit or lay on the floor thinking when will i see this band live. it has been 2 years i think deeply about that and guess what THIS AIN'T A DREAM ANYMORE!

the happiest day in my life, i went to melbourne all the way from indonesia just to see all time low. Melbourne at Hi-Fi. there i watched all time low for the first time, my favorite band of all time. can't believe i saw jack, dayum he was wearing a grey shirt, sort of black jeggings 3/4.

So first i have to wait 3 hours. one hour waiting to come in, and the 2 hours is these 2 bands which i don't know because they're like the opening guest. then when the 2 bands finished i was waiting for it, people started to push. The lights are out, first i saw rian's face i was like "OMG I CAN'T BELIVE THIS I CANT BELIEVE THIS" second i saw half of zack's face *i slapped myself while squealing*, third i saw alex when he came out i started to scream his name like crazy, then the final moment of my consciousness, jack came out strumming his purple guitar which i love. i felt mati rasa it's like this is not real, i still can't believe this. They played the songs from the 3 albums and i sang from the start till the end of the show. oh don't forget about the moshing, it was damn crazy, and i was like being pushed together by this 2 girls who's bodies are big and seriously my feet didn't touched the ground for a minute, it was hella crazy.

when alex played remembring sunday cassadee from hey monday came out and sang juliet's part i was like SERIOUSLY CASSADEE? awesome much! yea i was suffocating. Then jack did most of the crazy stuff ike he was lying on the floor while playing his guitar, wrote some dirty words on the back of his guitar and showed it to the crowd, and interacts with the crowd. i REAALLYY rgret it when he jumps to the crowd in the middle and i was on the left part because i want to see jack clearly, he was running around like a crazy maniac well that's jack :D jack is way cuter aslinya. he threw some picks and guess what? sadly i didn't get it, but the girl beside mw got it, it's always like that just the same as when paul BLG threw his pick guitar and the girl beside me got it and i kicked her head :p and rian threw his glow in the dark drumstick. and zack;sbody was HEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLL i think that ain't 6 packs anymore, it is more like 10 packs! hotness much, don't forget to mention alex's angelic voice and he is different, he is thinner and his hair is reaaall different. matt was singing also and vinny also played the guitar :D it was a complete AWESOMENESS. but sadly i didn't meet them personally :'( i already bring the poster and markers and stuff from the first day i was in melbourne but the good thing is that i really enjoyed the show. it was THE BEST :D

man i still cant believe this. that show was the best concert ever, the best band ever!

LOVE.

Another toy

2010-01-05T23:29:00.000-08:00

Barely seventeen
1,2,3,4 it's all pain
A bittersweet game
Bullshit
The feeling was like a coal
They blew it away till it burns
Never know how to love, it's all fake
Be mature, they played her heart like a toy
She looked them with disdain
Leave it like a scar, wasted times spent.
The heart is now prisoned
Her blood is drained but the heart is still beating
It's just another heartbreak
no one can depict the pain

Where is.
The true.
One.
She asked in her heart.

She'll never believe in love
Love is a fiction thing she said.

Moments

2010-01-05T23:22:00.000-08:00

she was only standing with no consequence
The great wall was a miracle
she didn't notice when the wind blows her heart
she skips a minute dare looking to the hazel eyes
the gravity was trembling
it's the third sight, not the very first time
the deep stare was a consequence to her heart
she never believe in love

Leave me paralyzed, love. Leave me hypnotized, love.

Me

2009-12-25T18:58:00.000-08:00

Something you have to know about me:

- I love ALL TIME LOW so much especially Jack Barakat, and i hate the fake fans who only like alex gaskarth and jack. Rian and zack are mostly forgotten, that i HATE so much. Thats what starting to pollute them, fake fans. i have this thing against them. but on the positive side, i love all time low since like last year and been making lyrics about them :) and i've been wanting to go to US just to see them and i heard theyre going here to jakarta next year! i'm super stoked i dont know what to do hahaha. they're music is a total awesomeness, i cant really tell which my fave song is, mostly all of 'em haha. but the first song i heard from them is coffee shop soundtrack :)

- i want to be a fashion designer, since in the 4th grade. i design for my personal project (2 times), technology project (3 times), and for this ANPS West Side Story play. i want to go to Parsons design school.

- i love penguins. don't ask.

-i have been having problems with fakers and posers. so i hate people who rub it on my face like being know-it-all and pretending being sksd to other ppl. just pathetic.

- color purple, black, and green is my fave since like eva!

- i'm obsessed with jane austen's works especially pride and prejudice and of curse Mr. Darcy! haha i love her novels its just different from other authors. the first time i like her works is because of my english cubject that we have to watch the movie and do some assignment about it, that's when it starts :D

-i love the number 14

- i really love black leather stuff, like bags and jackets.

AVATAR

2009-12-25T18:50:00.000-08:00

this movie is WAY WAY WAY AWESOME!!! this is a MUST see movie. god! i love this movie, i watched it in 3D which made it more awesome. this is now one of my favorite movie. the story, the actors, the animation, etc. it's just wow where on earth can the writer get an idea like that?! :D i want to watch it again. so it is about a guy who works for this company to find the stuff about the planet Pandora which the blue creature lives there(i forgot the name i think it's navi :P) and then he have to disguise himself by being one of them which is his blue avatar, but then at the end he felt the real affection for that planet and stuff that been happened to him accompanied by Neytiri which is Jake's love. then there's this big fight scene about 20 mins i think but it's awesome that i stressed out watching it haha. Then at the very end the planet Pandora wins against the humans and Jake stay as his avatar forever i think.

Oh yeah people might think im crazy for saying this but Jake's avatar is quite handsome and good looking, i mean look at the 3 meters body! it's just wow! and one of my friends agree also so im not the only one HAHAHHAHAAH but seriously the avatar looks like my friend from Philippines.

I NEED TO WATCH THIS AGAIN! and then alvin and the chipmunks 2!

Austen Movies

2009-12-24T23:59:00.000-08:00

yeaaaah jane austen again. i watched sense and sensibility version 1995 and 2007. and obviously i like 1995 better it shows more a lot about the character and just into it. a very good movie indeed but i hate willoughby :p This movie is sort of more about me even though im not sure with the ending though hehe. For 2007 i dont really like elinor because she doesn't really show herself like 1995.

The Jane Austen book club movie is cool but im confused with hugh dancy, but where's his british? Like every month they changed novels and talks about them and mostly solve their problems like their relationship with family and friends.

i really like the ITV of northanger abbey even though it's short rather than the other films about jane austen, Henry Tinley gives me the chills haha somehow his personality is very daring and charming the way he teases catherine. and the girl who played Kitty in P&P 2007 also played there. It's about gothic novels but also the love. haha. oh! and don't forget JJ Feild smile! very charming indeed! and his personality as Mr. Tilney that's something witty about him. oh he is very very charming!

Mansfield park version 1999 and 2007, cant seem to choose which one is better but i think i like 2007 better, there's more live in it but i dont think it really goes like in the novel. The one who plays edmund which is Blake Ritson, very handsome indeed haha, he's like the mix of Matthew Macfadyen, Jack Barakat and Paul DiGiovanni, well isn't that perfect? :D i got distracted by his face in the whole movie haha. he played in emma also. Just realized he got engaged with the one who played elinor in S&S 2007.

I finished reading pride and prejudice and it is awesome better than the movies and now i'm reading sense and sensibility.

So anyways i'm serious about my book and i already imagining who the characters are haha like for the two main guys are mitchel musso and hayden christensen but for the girl i dont know. I know i'm still new with this novel stuff, i just write it because for me it's fun and another way to express yourself and throw your emotions into it. dont know if it turns good or ot, it's still about 8000 words though, still little -.- o yea i dont know why i choose mitchel musso, its just weird its like he just come into my mind. i'm writing because i am inspired by Jane Austen. her novels are mostly about love and sisterhood.

Lost in Jane's World

2009-12-12T00:25:00.000-08:00

JANE AUSTEN is such a genius person, a very genius one to make novels that is very inspiring. i start to write my own because of jane austen :) i already watched the movie pride and prejudice 6 times, but i like the 2005 version better though. it's more flexible. and now im reading the book of p&p. oh yes im so in love with her works, and yes im a jane austen fan :)

i watched becoming jane, it is a very good film with kinda sad ending though and i am really hoping for a happy ending in her life, it tells you about her life. James McAvoy is a very good looking one haha and anne hathaway did a good job although i find her voice kinda disturbing when she speaks in british. there's a scene when she writes about first impressions(pride and prejudice) i was like panicking over it because of the name darcy and yeaa you get my point -.-

and also watched lost in austen, that film is very very amazingly outstanding, even though its inspired by pride and prejudice and that film is what every girl wants to be in it, i mean who doesn't want to be in a fairytale with darcy or bingley? and the film is kinda messed up in a good way with a differnet ending that darcy is in love with a modern woman from a different world. i like the bingley there even though he looked more messed up. but there's a scene when darcy came out from a pond. woaah i was suffocating. hahhaa. also the film is very funny i mean
"elizabeth bennet is lending me her handphone..ok"-amanda price
"Never mind the Bingley, bring on the Darcy"-amanda price
hahaha
i kinda cried towards the end because amanda is going home and there's the flashback of darcy with her. but it was a happy ending. but im gonna keep watching jane austen movies and read her other books. its like her book is a magic thing when you read it, it becomes addictive that it changes your personality.

in austen's time i think people especially girls want to be in it, cause they find it very romantic and the guys or men are very respectable and know how to treat a lady, dont forget romantic. in nowadays who can find a men that type?! i also wants to be in austen's time just to feel what it's like, the balls, the dance, the dresses, the curtsy and bow. oh and im making a dress the one that elizabeth bennet(keira knightley) wears but i design it myself. i really love the situation there from what i see in movies. i just want to be in jane austen's world.

sometimes i believe that there's gonna be a darcy in every girls lives, even though darcy is a pompous and selfish proud man who is very sensitive inside :) he keeps everything private and wonderful for the one he loves. oh what a great character he is.

Pride and Prejudice

2009-11-19T20:29:00.000-08:00

Jane Austen is such an amazing person, a genius one to make the novel. From first impression changed to pride and prejudice and yes there's a big connection with the movie just from the title, that is for me the pride is elizabeth and the prejudice is mr.darcy, understand how the movie goes sm mendalami and you feel like you're in it. At first this was only an assignment for english and i thought it was a lame movie about love and i was COMPLETELY wrong. it was a breath taking insanely good movie. its not like those typical love movie. dan waktu keadaannya tuh tepat banget, jd it supports the way of the movie goes. bagi yg suka film romance, middle age ini pas banget. this movie is too good. i watched it like 4 times already, in a week, and im gonna watch it again. this is the first time im so in love with a romantic movie. the second time i watched this movie i realized about the whole story, its just wonderful and it was at 1 am in the morning when i watched this, i was screaming and nervous everytime darcy made a trigger. haha

yang paling pas dri movie ini tuh MR DARCY nya yg d mainkan oleh Matthew Macfadyen. that guy is insanely handsome and perfect for the role. in the rain scene you must see his eyes deeply, it looks like its crystal clear, so beautiful. i love mr darcy, im in love with the character of mr darcy. i wish there's a real mr darcy in this world. i think im obsessed with this movie and mr darcy -.- haha if you follow my twitter, you know what im sayin right now. haha. gw sampe ngafalin lines nya with the accent. im never gonna get tired of this movie. its not only a love story but our opinions about them, the characters also made an opinion to each other. try to understand.

"Elizabeth Bennet: Now if every man in the room does not end the evening in love with you then I am no judge of beauty.
Jane Bennet: [giggles] Or men.
Elizabeth Bennet: [laughs brightly] No, they are far too easy to judge.
Jane Bennet: They're not all bad.
Elizabeth Bennet: Humorless poppycocks, in my limited experience.
Jane Bennet: One of these days, Lizzie, someone will catch your eye and then you'll have to watch your tongue. "
oh yes lizzie, watch your tongue. i like the impression when elizabeth first looked at mr darcy, yes mr darcy seems like he doesn't care. but i can see the attraction.

and the best part is mr darcy always appear where elizabeth is. i love the way he keep his feelings toward lizzie (elizabeth). i love the rain scene its my favorite, it tells everything. especially when darcy said i love you to lizzie. that was shocking. the way they talk is so intense, i mean like i can feel the intensity.
"Mr.Darcy: I love you. Most ardently. Please do me the honor of accepting my hand." -rain scene

Also i just realized that matthw macfadyen look like nick wheeler. lookie lookie.. and also i like nick wheeler. well there's a shock :) i got this picture from allegra, my bingley friend :p

i hate the ending though, i was expecting something better. like the american ending, sweet. for me i like this 2005 version better than the others.

when you meet a mr.darcy in real life. i believe it was unconsciously done -me